9709: life path

Numerology. I stumbled on this info while checking how many days old I am. Reading it, I was like, "bullshit, why would adding a date together determine your traits. Your genes create who you are, not the position of the sun and the moon in the sky."

But then, reading it over, it's almost creepy how all of the features seem to describe me to a tee:

The Life Path 1 suggests that you entered this plane with skills allowing you to become a leader type rather easily. Your nature is charged with individualistic desires, a demand for independence, and the need for personal attainment. Many of our military generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path 1. When you display positive 1 traits your mind is capable of significant creative inspiration, and it possesses the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. You are very good at getting the ball rolling; initiating new projects is your forte. You are at your best when confronted with obstacles and challenges, as you combat these with strength and daring. This is both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. You have a tendency to do this, even if, at times, it is not appropriate for you to do so.

Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You tire of routine and highly detailed tasks rather quickly.

You are ambitious and assertive in promoting yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you can be self-centered and demand to have your way in many circumstances. That said, for the most part, you are considered very good company, friendly, good-natured, and a wonderful conversationalist. People like you and are drawn to you. It is a good thing they are, because you are very sensitive to disapproval and you don't handle it very well.

There are several ways that the negative side of the 1 can show up. The 1 always has the potential for greatness as a leader, but they may fail as a follower. Unfortunately, sometimes you have to follow for a while before you are allowed to lead and this can be a difficult time. When the 1 Life Path person is not fully developed and expressing the negative side of this number, the demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent, particularly in the early years. If you are expressing this negative trait of the number 1, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances, and long for self-sufficiency. This might be defined as the weak or dependent side of the negative 1 Life Path. On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Avoid being too bossy and demanding.

9706: Guitar

At least I have good news. I wanted to at least get started learning how to play the guitar, or get in to it more, and with my recent break up, I have been. Writing every day now. Not enough... Everyone's life has really interesting parts, and it's a shame that we don't just write them down when they happen and share our life story's when we're living less interesting lives.

I seen how this roller coaster ride looked, but I didn't know it would feel. Almost a little too extreme. I miss the stability of marriage which creates a complicated issue where I seek it with other people but have to tear myself away so I can see what else is out there. I'm not used to this lifestyle. My enter key isn't working. I think my computer has been hacked but I just stopped caring. I couldn't sleep last night. I need to find inner peace.

9704: holy shit

too personal to put on the web...

wow

9703: Awesome

It was great to see Amanda and Matt yesterday and see how cool everything is. We all agreed we married too young. Unreal. I know it doesn't make for interesting story-telling, but I think stories focus too much on conflict.

I never knew it was even possible to see your wife with another person and be totally cool with it.

I guess since I'm seeing other people, it pretty much takes away any spite.

9702: I liked this blog better when my life was boring

It was a place where I could put down my thoughts, think outside the box and show my ideas.

Now all I can think about is Women.

I know Amanda might actually read this, and I hope you know that I still care for you. I care for you enough that I want you to be happy with other people.

I've been going through my ups and downs too, and while I miss the stability, I have a feeling that this is something that I needed to help myself.

I'm sorry if your mad at me, and your going to be here soon and it's going to be awkward as hell.

you'll probably be reading this after we separated our account and I hope you know why I have to be cold in this situation. I know it hurts but in the end I'm confident we'll be better people from this.

9701: life change

I really need to take this perspective shift in the right direction. I don't know if I should be dating when I should be furthering my education.

I know I need to do it, and my inability to get off my ass was a big problem in our marriage. A lot of it was other things, but that's my demon that I need to overcome.

I need to quit working for my dad and step in to the real world.