Sunday, August 31, 2008

Saturday, August 30, 2008

9746: Hate

The only thing I hate in this world are different aspects of myself.

And I hate that.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Thursday, August 28, 2008


funny stuff

9744: photoshop and facebook

I photoshopped this image of me today. The top being the original. Did a quick couple things, nothing really major. I did alter my nose a bit.

The one question that's been bugging me is, is it right to photoshop your pictures in Facebook?

Sure, a couple color changes, big deal. But to alter a nose, or more major changes seems deceptive.

The reaction I get from people after I tell them that an image was photoshopped, they tend to look at me like, oh that was fake?

Even though I try to make any changes minimal, once someone knows that the image

has been altered, they can never know whats original and what's changed in future pics.

Personally, I don't see it as a big deal. I would love to make money doing things like this. If you have a picture and want me to alter it, contact me and we can work something out

9744: some pics

Some very cool art from the web, here's my very own pic taken near Hadashville:

9744: money

I could use some.

click on some ads, help a brother out.

Sad when you realize that the content specific ads is spouting shit like, "Low self-esteem? Anxiety and depression getting you down?"

Is that seriously what I write about?

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

9743: photoshop

I did the same tutorial job I did earlier except with Caroline as the subject.

I went a little farther with effects, but it feels like there's something missing, or I could darken the silhouette a bit. Not too sure, I'm unsatisfied but I know it looks good. Maybe I've just been working on it too long.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

new Metallica

When I first heard their new single: The day that never comes
, I only caught the end and it blew me away.

I was literally freaking out in my truck and turned to my brother and asked is my face peeling? Cause this is rocking my face off.

Later that evening I caught the beginning and thought, "why James? Why do you have to ruin a perfectly good rocking song with your pompous voice?"

Overall, it's great, so much better then St. Anger and in my opinion better then load and reload, almost as good as their old shit, but they just can't pass that threshold. I just don't hear the same James anymore. Instead of the angry pent-up young aggression, I hear this ... fakeness...

Like St. Anger was their attempt to create a new metal for the new generation, and yet they failed miserably. So, instead they try and recreate the music that made them famous, which is good, but instead of making music just for the sake of making it, they're saying, "is this what you want? Is this what you want? We need more money so we want to get it right. We wont have a high quality mp3 of our single online, just this bad one, so you get a taste and go buy it on iTunes cause our boatloads of cash just isn't enough."

That says something about the band, and you can hear it in the voice. I hear NIN in a completely different way because they released their whole album for free.

9742: story idea

to get wrapped up in a story is to disconnect yourself from your own life.

I need to do that. I need to get wrapped up in writing and get it done before the next thing in my life comes along and occupies all my thought time.

Monday, August 25, 2008

9,741: why do cats get destructive?

At what point does the cat walk by a book for the hundredth time and all of a sudden figure, "hey, I'm going to tear it up this time."

emotions, right?

why do we let them control us?

Because we need them to strive, to survive, to feel alive.

Friday, August 22, 2008

9738: that's better


Today is going to be a good day.

Thursday, August 21, 2008


God, please take the pain away

Monday, August 18, 2008

9734: recap

On Friday, I went to Kevins, had a few beers and played Bionic Commando. Went to bed early, was exhausted from the night before.

Saturday morning, I got a call from Caroline and helped her find her car. It was parked at the "house of Dread", where a member/s from dreadnuaght lives.

We grabbed her bike from Santa Lucia's and I showed her some paths. Afterwards, we went to Morris and played in a horse shoe competition. Sunday, we went to Assiniboine park and biked the trails there. There was this cool group of people playing drums underneath the bridge.

Caroline got a couple extra tickets to Cruefest so she gave them to me. I checked it out. It was pretty cool, but I'm not the biggest crue fan. They put on a good show, and it was alright, but going by myself wasn't as fun as I expected.

She got fired from her job and wanted to go drink with some friends, but I was tired and just went home alone. Amanda took the bed, tv and other things, so coming home to sleep on a couch was pretty depressing. I stumbled on some old wedding photos and.... well, you don't need to know.

Why do I put myself in these situations

Friday, August 15, 2008

9731: care

yeah, I fucked up. I should have waited. I should have communicated. I should have done a lot of things. I'm an animal just like you. How could one animal tame another?

So yeah, I messed up, but how could you do the things that you do? Don't you care that I'm sitting right there? Can't you see what that does to me?

It would have drove me crazy. I would have let you walk all over me like a love-sick puppy and you would have fucked another guy if you haven't already.

Monday, August 11, 2008

9727: blond streaks and bug bites

I have blond facial hair mixed in with my brown. I had noticed symmetrical patterns and finally figured out that it's the sun that does it. Where the shadows fall is where they're not as blond.

I ps'd this image this morning, used this tutorial:

I messed up in a few areas, I might go back and fix it/redo it some day. This picture has a story behind it. I got a bug bite or something at dragon-boat weekend, and after a few days, right after a series of unfortunate events with the wrong woman, I woke up with a terrible migraine and the spot had opened up. I took a picture of it cause it looked like a tear drop. Am I emo? No, I just think it was an interesting coincidence.


Scorned and torn, I only had myself to blame. What have I lost and what is the cost, for playing this over-rated game.

(ok, maybe I'm a little emo... whatever, I'd rather feel pain then nothing at all, and whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.)

Sunday, August 10, 2008

9726: The beach

Thank you Matt.

impeccable timing.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

fruit and vegetables

I've began eating more veggies lately. I used to make fun of vegans/vegetarians but have developed a respect for their cause.

It's not just about caring for the animal. It's not even just about meat. It's about a fat fucking nation and the bad habits we're developing and passing on to our children.

It's not that hard to cut down on meat portions and get more healthy, local food.

9722: fine line

Distinguishing that fine line between genius and madness.

My brother told me that hes getting together with his church to try and resurrect people. I kind of freaked out at him, because one of my last visits to a church was when a preacher said he was "almost there" when it came to resurrection.

I'm thinking to myself, "Are you fucking insane? Have we not already clearly established that death is a law?"

"What kind of madness is this?"

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

9721: single

how do you people do this? I've been single for two weeks and I'm ready to lose it.

The dating scene is torture at its best.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Sunday, August 3, 2008

9719: 10 rules

Ten Rules for Being Human

by Cherie Carter-Scott

1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.

2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."

4. Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.

6. "There" is no better a place than "here." When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."

7. Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.

8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your answers lie within you. The answers to life's questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.

10. You will forget all this.