I do this a lot. I tell myself that I'm going to stop smoking weed, and I try. I get frustrated around people and nobody really understands. I've been thinking about getting help in this. I've been able to quit by myself in the past but, a lot of the times when I give it an attempt, I fail. Today, I'm out, it'll only be a matter of time before my mind starts expecting something that I won't give it.
I've read that this is a non-unified state of mind (part of me is saying yes, while the other part is saying. I'm living in a state of chaos when I fight myself internally.
There's only one person driving this ship and that guy does not want to be a pothead today.
I miss my dreams. I miss being witty. I miss the people that I care about.
I will not miss my mark.