I seen how this roller coaster ride looked, but I didn't know it would feel. Almost a little too extreme. I miss the stability of marriage which creates a complicated issue where I seek it with other people but have to tear myself away so I can see what else is out there. I'm not used to this lifestyle. My enter key isn't working. I think my computer has been hacked but I just stopped caring. I couldn't sleep last night. I need to find inner peace.